Although it may seem that nothing but depression can trigger this ... it is not true .... it can happen subsequent to euphoria; post some cherished accomplishment or when I look at a brilliant sunset too ( sorry to all those nature lovers who believe sunsets are always inspirational ! :) ).
I am confused when I find that this mental frame is not chased away by one's regular daily activities, music, movies, books , shopping ( :) ) , browsing, twitter ( :) ) etc
This is different .... it does not intrude in the normal course of life's events ... what it does is, give a spectator perspective .... it is a part of every activity and yet a bystander ... a strange dichotomy of being ....
It is not sadness, happiness, not anger , not futility, not animation or sentimentality ...... and it dawns on me ( sometimes after a week or so !!!! ) ... it is nothing ...... a very special barrenness .....
A strange emptiness ; an emptiness that resounds with silence .... a thing of desolate beauty .... an emptiness where thoughts are intruders .......
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